work
got home from work few minutes ago. tired but too tired to sleep. right now, i know my mom will be very upset if she''ll find out that i'm still awake at this time. i already heard the whole nine yards from her this afternoon before i went to work and how she's mad because i get home late from work and too tired to eat dinner and too tired to sleep yet wakes up late noon the next morning and skipping breakfast. eating some lunch, im up for work again and same routine all over again. i can't blame her for blaming me but things have been out of control lately. i've been working a lot and to be honest, i'm so tired. cross that out - tired is an understatement. exhausted is the word. but still, i'm working tomorrow, friday off and then back to work at weekends. what can i say, i guess just be grateful i have the ability to work.
RIP
i can't help but to tear at work again when the sweetest patient i've ever met since i started working @ my floor died on my shift. i told myself last time i'm going to try my best not to cry over a person who's not totally related to me but this proves how actually weak i am. you can't help but to ask why him. he was perfectly fine the whole time. although for the past 4 hours, he pushed the call button and asked for me 19 times- i will never complain even if i have to answer that button every 30 seconds IF ONLY he'll live. before i went on break, he pushed the call button and asked for a blanket. i went to give him 2 and before i left, he asked for my hand and asked me if he can give me a hug as a way of saying his thank you. who would've thought that's the last time i'll be able to talk with him? when i came back, he's gone. i feel so vulnerable. tonight, he taught me two things. first, you will never know if that will be the last time you'll talk and interact with a person, so grab that opportunity and show him/her how much you care. second, always show how much you care to all those people who are close to you or even every person you'll encounter because that simple expression will always remain in their thoughts. @ least for me, his sweet words, thoughtful acts and meaningful smile will always remain with me.
thanksgiving
so technically, it's already turkey day. happy thanksgiving everyone. i feel bad i have to work tomorrow and won't be able to spend thanksgiving dinner with my family but i made them promise to set aside some turkey for me or else - trouble. hahaha. well, ill be off friday so probably that's the time we'll go out. i feel bad for the turkeys. i bet thanksgiving is their all saint's day. for once, chickens will feel lucky they're smaller and not turkeys at all. planetarium last saturday, i brought my sister and dad with me at my school's planetarium to see a laser show. at first, we watched "fall night sky" featuring all the constellations for the autumn season. it was interesting but not as fun as i thought it would be. at least, he explained where the cassiopeia is and he said that it's one of the major constellations of fall season. * claps* later at the laser show entitled "led zeppelin" - that's when trouble kinda started. it turned out that the entire laser show is being played with all the hard rock music of led zeppelin. while the rest of the audience were enjoying and clapping and staring at the dome, the three of us are closing our ears and eyes at the same time and can't wait to leave the place. dad was mad at me. i guess that's not his type of music. neither am i. but in the end, i know how to melt his heart: pad thai @ thai kitchen for dinner. haha. what a night.
random
wouldn't it be nice if you can drive far far away from the city, away from the crowd. sit in a rooftop or lie down in an open field, stare at the sky and count as many shooting stars as you can. wouldnt it be nice if i can be the richest person in the world for just one day and be able to buy coloring books and crayons with a little toy and give it to all the orphans and poor people in my country and the other third world countries. wouldn't it be nice if i can always have the perfect advice and a perfect ear to listen everytime someone needs me. wouldn't it be nice if i can actually do all the favors asked and still have time for myself.
this has been a very long entry for me. what can i do, i've got no one to talk to over the phone. well, i guess it's all perfect timing - past one in the morning, exhaustion, pouring my thoughts over a single post, rain outside, lullaby songs, surrounded by pillows will surely lull me to sleep. i just wish i'll be able to wake up early tomorrow and eat breakfast - both to please my mom and my grouchy stomach who's been missing breakfast for the past month.
Dear God, thank you for giving me life i'm having right now. thank you for the breath everytime i wake up in the morning. thank you for all the blessings you’ve been showering. thank you for remembering all my loved ones and for keeping them safe and sound. thank you for all the trials and problems that makes me learn how to trust You more. may you continue to protect and guide my family, relatives and all of my friends wherever they may be. remember my 91 year old friend who just died 5 hours ago, may you give his family peace of mind and overcome this loss. thank you for loving me. i love you, in dear Jesus name, amen.
good night .
got home from work few minutes ago. tired but too tired to sleep. right now, i know my mom will be very upset if she''ll find out that i'm still awake at this time. i already heard the whole nine yards from her this afternoon before i went to work and how she's mad because i get home late from work and too tired to eat dinner and too tired to sleep yet wakes up late noon the next morning and skipping breakfast. eating some lunch, im up for work again and same routine all over again. i can't blame her for blaming me but things have been out of control lately. i've been working a lot and to be honest, i'm so tired. cross that out - tired is an understatement. exhausted is the word. but still, i'm working tomorrow, friday off and then back to work at weekends. what can i say, i guess just be grateful i have the ability to work.
RIP
i can't help but to tear at work again when the sweetest patient i've ever met since i started working @ my floor died on my shift. i told myself last time i'm going to try my best not to cry over a person who's not totally related to me but this proves how actually weak i am. you can't help but to ask why him. he was perfectly fine the whole time. although for the past 4 hours, he pushed the call button and asked for me 19 times- i will never complain even if i have to answer that button every 30 seconds IF ONLY he'll live. before i went on break, he pushed the call button and asked for a blanket. i went to give him 2 and before i left, he asked for my hand and asked me if he can give me a hug as a way of saying his thank you. who would've thought that's the last time i'll be able to talk with him? when i came back, he's gone. i feel so vulnerable. tonight, he taught me two things. first, you will never know if that will be the last time you'll talk and interact with a person, so grab that opportunity and show him/her how much you care. second, always show how much you care to all those people who are close to you or even every person you'll encounter because that simple expression will always remain in their thoughts. @ least for me, his sweet words, thoughtful acts and meaningful smile will always remain with me.
thanksgiving
so technically, it's already turkey day. happy thanksgiving everyone. i feel bad i have to work tomorrow and won't be able to spend thanksgiving dinner with my family but i made them promise to set aside some turkey for me or else - trouble. hahaha. well, ill be off friday so probably that's the time we'll go out. i feel bad for the turkeys. i bet thanksgiving is their all saint's day. for once, chickens will feel lucky they're smaller and not turkeys at all. planetarium last saturday, i brought my sister and dad with me at my school's planetarium to see a laser show. at first, we watched "fall night sky" featuring all the constellations for the autumn season. it was interesting but not as fun as i thought it would be. at least, he explained where the cassiopeia is and he said that it's one of the major constellations of fall season. * claps* later at the laser show entitled "led zeppelin" - that's when trouble kinda started. it turned out that the entire laser show is being played with all the hard rock music of led zeppelin. while the rest of the audience were enjoying and clapping and staring at the dome, the three of us are closing our ears and eyes at the same time and can't wait to leave the place. dad was mad at me. i guess that's not his type of music. neither am i. but in the end, i know how to melt his heart: pad thai @ thai kitchen for dinner. haha. what a night.
random
wouldn't it be nice if you can drive far far away from the city, away from the crowd. sit in a rooftop or lie down in an open field, stare at the sky and count as many shooting stars as you can. wouldnt it be nice if i can be the richest person in the world for just one day and be able to buy coloring books and crayons with a little toy and give it to all the orphans and poor people in my country and the other third world countries. wouldn't it be nice if i can always have the perfect advice and a perfect ear to listen everytime someone needs me. wouldn't it be nice if i can actually do all the favors asked and still have time for myself.
this has been a very long entry for me. what can i do, i've got no one to talk to over the phone. well, i guess it's all perfect timing - past one in the morning, exhaustion, pouring my thoughts over a single post, rain outside, lullaby songs, surrounded by pillows will surely lull me to sleep. i just wish i'll be able to wake up early tomorrow and eat breakfast - both to please my mom and my grouchy stomach who's been missing breakfast for the past month.
Dear God, thank you for giving me life i'm having right now. thank you for the breath everytime i wake up in the morning. thank you for all the blessings you’ve been showering. thank you for remembering all my loved ones and for keeping them safe and sound. thank you for all the trials and problems that makes me learn how to trust You more. may you continue to protect and guide my family, relatives and all of my friends wherever they may be. remember my 91 year old friend who just died 5 hours ago, may you give his family peace of mind and overcome this loss. thank you for loving me. i love you, in dear Jesus name, amen.
good night .