bellybutton. say it. it sounds funny.

laugh at the face
of boredom

navigate using the bars above
gracias.

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her time capsule.
hence, more updated.

Better Than I

by david campbell

I thought I did what’s right
I thought I had the answers
I thought I chose the surest road
But that road brought me here

So I put up a fight
And told you how to help me
Now just when I have given up
The truth is coming clear

You know better than I
You know the way
I’ve let go the need to know why
For you know better than I

If this has been a test
I cannot see the reason
But maybe knowing I don’t know
Is part of getting through

I try to do what’s best
And faith has made it easy
To see the best thing I can do
Is put my trust in you

For You know better than I
You know the way
I’ve let go the need to know why
For you know better than I

I saw one cloud and thought it was a sky
I saw a bird and thought that I could follow
But it was you who taught that bird to fly
If I let you reach me will you teach me

For You know better than I
You know the way
I’ve let go the need to know why
I’ll take what answers you supply
You know better than I

U . T U B E . ♥

better than i
by david campbell

P R O F I L E

nice meeting you too.

yep, my name's janreine. you can call me reine. at least that's what most people call me. jan.reine@yahoo.com. januarythirteeneightysix. working as a nurse has been a rollercoaster. as much as i love doing it, it's exhausting yet fulfilling. a simple thank you and a smile from my patients makes my day. i praise God for my family and my friends. even though i don't get to see them due to distance, that doesn't mean i don't think about them everyday. my church family is awesome too. i think i'm a homebody type-of-person. simple things amuses me. Jesus keeps me sane all the time. even though things has been and will always be unpredictable, i know HE got me.

T H I R T E E N
RANDOM FACTS

name's reine.

ONE i love Jesus and He's always gonna be my reason. matthew 6:33. TWO sleeping has been my recent favorite past-time hobby. THREE i don't know why but i get easily attached to kids. FOUR blowing dandelions cheers me up. FIVE i am kinda addicted to facebook. SIX i am still in this journey of finding my own purpose in life. SEVEN everybody loves to go the zoo. i do but come on, who doesn't? EIGHT i'm not hard to please. just smile, i'll be your friend instantly. NINE mountaintops, lighthouses, waterfalls, hotair balloons, stargazing & sunsets: priceless happiness TEN simplicity is beauty. ELEVEN i don't know how to sing. mkay, i do sing but i'm out of tune most of the time. TWELVE before i grow old, i'm dedicated to learn how to play piano. THIRTEEN i think sushi is one of the greatest food invention. salmon skin?

T O D O L I S T

yeah right reine

[ ] eat breakfast everyday
[ ] upload pictures
[ ] get-in-touch with people
[ ] clean my room
[ ] update this blog

P L U G - I N
T O T H E
S O U R C E

be blessed

When a potter bakes a pot, he checks its solidity by pulling it out of the oven and thumping it. If it “sings,” it’s ready. If it “thuds,” it’s placed back in the oven. The character of a person is also checked by thumping.

Been thumped lately?

Late-night phone calls. Grouchy teacher. Grumpy moms. Burnt meals. Flat tires. You’ve-got-to-be-kidding deadlines. Those are thumps.

Thumps are those irritating inconveniences that trigger the worst in us. They catch us off guard. Flat-footed. They aren’t big enough to be crises, but if you get enough of them, watch out! Traffic jams. Long lines. Empty mailboxes. Dirty clothes on the floor. Even as I write this, I’m being thumped. Because of interruptions, it has taken me almost two hours to write these two paragraphs.

Thump. Thump. Thump.
How do I respond? Do I sing, or do I thud?

Jesus said that out of the nature of the heart a man speaks (Luke 6:45). There’s nothing like a good thump to reveal the nature of a heart. The true character of a person is seen not in momentary heroics but in the thump-packed humdrum of day-to-day living.

If you have a tendency to thud more than you sing, take heart. There is hope for us “thudders”: Begin by thanking God for thumps. I don’t mean a half-hearted thank-you. I mean a rejoicing, jumping-for-joy thank-you from the bottom of your heart (James 1:2). Chances are that God is doing the thumping. And he’s doing it for your own good.

So every thump is a reminder that God is molding you (Hebrews 12:5-8).

Learn from each thump. Face up to the fact that you are not “thump-proof.” You are going to be tested from now on. You might as well learn from the thumps—you can’t avoid them. Look upon each inconvenience as an opportunity to develop patience and persistence. Each thump will help you or hurt you, depending on how you use it.

Be aware of “thump-slump” times. Know your pressure periods. For me, Mondays are infamous for causing thump-slumps. Fridays can be just as bad. For all of us, there are times during the week when we can anticipate an unusual amount of thumping. The best way to handle thump-slump times? Head on. Bolster yourself with extra prayer, and don’t give up.

Remember no thump is disastrous. All thumps work for good if we are loving and obeying God.

Thump-Thud, Thump-Thud
-Max Lucado

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

if you are brave to say "goodbye", life will reward you with a new "hello."

this post is for everyone i know. i actually want to apologize to everyone for the reine you've encountered for the past months is not the same reine you probably met before. sorry for the fake smile. sorry for the impatience. sorry for the deep thoughts. sorry for late replys. sorry for being withdrawn. sorry for everything else unmentioned. sorry, for i am still grieving.

there are some things we never really appreciate, not until they are gone. it's an overrated statement but it is so true. and it becomes more real once you've actually experienced it yourself - having something, someone SO special be taken away from you both expectedly and unexpectedly. either way, it hurts.

since dad passed away, i have never been the same. and that is probably who the reine you're dealing with at the present. according to my doctor, he's diagnosing me with mild depression. with some weight gain, insomnia, inability to concentrate, inability to control my pessimism, irritability and tearful nights - maybe he's right. as much as i'm embarassed to admit that maybe i am undergoing depression, i realized maybe he is right.

and it's been like this - not since dad passed away but since he was diagnosed with lung/bone/brain cancer specifically august twothousandnine. everytime i wake up in the morning, i always whisper to myself - "i will start today and i will overcome these feelings". then i fail. and it's been a year already and it's the same stupid feeling. grieving isn't easy, it cripples you.

i would always look forward to that day where i can finally say to myself, "finally, i am okay." then i realized, maybe i shouldn't wait for that moment. maybe i should just start right here, right now. and maybe things will get better.

i am who i am right now and a huge part of that is how my dad raised me. when he said goodbye, a huge part of me was buried with him but i realized he wouldnt want me crying all the time for the rest of my life. i realized that i have to grow up and to move on - even without him. i realized that even without him around, i can still make him proud. and i realized that because of him, i have to appreciate what i have and who i have at the present time before it's actually too late.

i am going to sleep soon but when i wake up in the morning, im gonna try to be brave. i'll try to be the same reine as how i was before for i miss her too. i know it's not going to be easy but i am blessed i still have my mom and my sister with me - and they are still my ohana. it is so hard to let go but i have to for with goodbye comes with a new hello.

dear dada,
OH how i miss you still. but i'm gonna say goodbye for now. not because i have forgotten you or not because i have moved on. i'm going to say goodbye because i realized that that's just how life works. that it moves forward and it doesn't get stuck in the past. that's why there are things called memory and hope. memory to relive those special moments we've shared together and hope that we will definitely see each other again. but for now, i have to stand up again and continue to walk this journey even without you. i love you always and i promise you - i will still make you proud. no matter what, i will ALWAYS be your daddy's girl. goodbye for now dad but i'll see you sometime later.
-reine

"sometimes you have to be apart from people you love, but that doesn't mean you love them any less. sometimes it even makes you love them more."

dear God,
you know what's best. it takes time to move on but tonight, i've decided to overcome this so-called depression. help me for with You, i can do all things. thank you for second chances. amen

said bellybutton
five times fast
@ 11:41 PM
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